Calling My Children Home

I wanted to share with you how much I miss my kids.

Enjoy the lyrics:

Those lives were mine to love and cherish.

To guard and guide along life's way.

Oh God forbid that one should perish.

That one alas should go astray.

Back in the years with all together,

Around the place we'd romp and play.

So lonely now and oft' times wonder,

Oh will they come back home some day.

I'm lonesome for my precious children,

They live so far away.

Oh may they hear my calling...calling..

and come back home some day.

I gave my all for my dear children,

Their problems still with love I share,

I'd brave life's storm, defy the tempest

To bring them home from anywhere.

I lived my life my love I gave them,

to guide them through this world of strife,

I hope and pray we'll live together,

In that great glad here after life.

I'm lonesome for my precious children,

They live so far away.

Oh may they hear my calling...calling.. and come back home some day

Artist: Harris Emmylou

Ahmed Eldemellawy

Our Kids Are our Own Responsibilty

It is very clear that for an Arab Muslim, there is very little chance of living a life with freedom. We are left alone on our own, with no choice other than defending ourselves, our values, our culture, and for sure our beliefs. It is obvious that very few political leaders, either in the west or in our own countries are willing to respect or even listen to our requests and needs. It is very alarming to see a live example of what is happening to us embodied in what is going in Gaza. It is a clear opportunity to see my future and my family's  future determined by others who have no respect what so ever to our values and our life. George Michelle, who is barely starting his mission in the Middle East has already decided that HAMAS is a terrorist organization and that Israel is defending itself. In the meantime, some of the Arab Leaders were hoping for the surrender of Palestinian resistance against the "mighty" Israeli Army. They are worried that an Islamic democracy is emerging at their borders. So, the crossings are mostly closed. They are making sure, that the Palestinians are technically prisoners. Israel is investigating and confirming the procedures to make sure that the Palestinians will never receive any weapons to make sure that the Palestinians should be killed with all types of illegal weapons without being able to defend themselves. The Israeli fathers has brought their boys to the gun trainer who is having a beard and wearing the cap –in the above picture- to teach their little kids how to use machine guns to kill Arabs or so called Palestinians. He is not a terrorist. He is also not bringing up little terrorists. He is only practicing the freedom of the "only democracy" in the Middle East. On the other hand, can we teach our kids how to use weapons? Can we have weapons? Can we even express ourselves with freedom? The answer is "NO". What is happening to Gaza is already happening to us. It is because we are not bombed with white phosphorus, we think we are safe. We Are Not Safe. We are severely abused by the western world who is supporting our dictators and in the meantime attack our societies as backward cultures. So let us stand for ourselves. We have no support but Allah. Let us grasp His ropes and make sure we are pursuing His path. Ahmed Eldemellawy

The British Police, Streotyping and Supporting Adbuction

The British Police has issued a statement against me. The statement falsely "Confirms" actions of violence against my wife Nermine Yamani Darwish and my kids Ali and Sadime. They went even further and "Confirmed" that such violence was afflicted not only by me but also by the members of my family who never lived in the UK.

My wife Nermine and her Dad Yamani Darwish has used the statement as a proof of my violent character and suspicious behavior in the Courts of law in Egypt and the statement was published in the major newspapers in Egypt and her Dad was interviewed about it on the major Arabic speaking satellite TVs.

When I communicated with the British Police Officer who issued the statement, she told me that they have "Nothing" against me. The British police added that they gave Nermine this letter to support her in the Egyptian Courts of Law and to stop me from coming back to the UK to pursue my abducted kids. When I complained of how the British Police acts as a witness in the Egyptian Courts while they have never witnessed anything. Their answer was that Nermine is entitled to receive support.

They also made it clear that their "Confirming" of the violence does not mean "Confirming", but it means "Reporting" of violence. The IPCC letter explained that it is unfortunate that the "Confirmation" of violence was understood as "Confirmation". IPCC went even further by advising me if I am suffering from discrimination against me in Egypt because of how the statement was understood, to pursue it in Egypt and it has nothing to do with the British Police who means "Reporting" when they write "Confirming".

The Police insist that issuing of such a false statement was correct. They claim that do care about their procedures and they do not care for the damages they incur to others. I am sure that a similar treatment would never happen to a middle class and above English man.

The British Police acted similarly in Jean Charles de Menezes case. They were found guilty for Health and Safety issues and not for killing the man. The man's life worth nothing.

The British Police is supporting my British Wife to abduct my kids. I have not seen my 2 little kids for 2 years now. I know nothing about them. I demand access to my kids. I want the British Police to be responsible for the damages incurred because of the irresponsible behavior and clear stereotyping and discriminatory behavior.

Ahmed Eldemellawy

Reaching Out is Great

Reaching out, and getting in touch with people is very satisfying. It is one of the most rewarding experiences we humans enjoy. The idea of reaching out is very simple. Reach out, not for a reason, just talk, say "Hi", send a nice short message, just be there with people and for them. It does not have to be for a cause or for a benefit. It is a very inspiring exercise. Few days ago, I was on the Highway sitting next to my friend who was driving. We were passing a car and a little girl was sitting in her seat in the back looking around with an incredible smile. I smiled back at her. She waved to me. I waved back to her. She started to laugh. Her smile and her laugh were shining and made me smile and laugh. She is spontaneous and powerful, and it is very hard not to get attracted to her. This is reaching out. She is reaching out to everybody and she is also making a difference in the lives of the people around her. For the rest of the journey I kept doing the same as she did. People were smiling back, waving, and saying 'Hi'. It was a fantastic experience. I am so honored to have this beautiful, little girl as my coach in reaching out actively and not to be worried how I look. Ahmed Eldemellawy

I am reaching out .. Hi my world

These days I am going through emotional bouts. I miss my kids, all of them. They are growing and they are changing. I know and I believe that the easiest way to have them in my life is to accept them how they are and not to fix them. As a father, it is very difficult not TO FIX my kids. I am always tempted to do so. In the meantime I am grilled by their lack of attention to me. When I look at myself, I am not the best son regarding my communication with my parents. I love my parents so much but I was never the best communicator I can be. So I do not blame my kids for not being good communicators as I am not a good example myself. I love my parents so much, but I am not sure if I properly show that or not. That is exactly what I am receiving from my kids too. I am on a roller coaster of power and satisfaction to bottoms of desperation and boredom. When I am at the top, I always have the initiative and I feel great. When I am at the bottom of my life rollercoaster, I am always waiting for attention and care which is very poor and inconsistent.

I chose to write today to communicate with you and with the whole world. What I am communicating is of no value, it is the communication and living the being of a human. Isolating myself within my body and not crossing the gaps to you, all of you, including my kids is a major disservice to me. Communicating with you, all of you is part of being alive and it is living my role as a member of this huge community called the world.

I started to blog a while ago, almost a year now. Frequency of my articles was always inconsistent as I was always waiting for what is right to write, so that I add to you, To Fix You, my world community and To LOOK good.

I have just figured it out today that writing to you what I am going through is of a great value for all of us. It entrenches my position as a member of our fantastic world community that we are all responsible for. Regardless of how I look it also empowers me to live happily and experience positive emotions.

English is my second language, so feel free if you want to comment on my ideas, spelling or grammar mistakes. Our communication is my purpose, and living together happily is my goal.

See you around or online

Ahmed Eldemellawy

Laila my little girl or a grown up woman

Bright Future .. Our Kids deserve it !

Being a father is a brilliant state and a naturally flowing feeling. It is so natural. It nurtures the satisfaction of being alive man. Fatherhood is a deep seated state in most men. It is the source of renewable energy that keeps most men struggling and fighting with limited resources to bring food home.
Yesterday after Asr (afternoon) prayer , I sat down in a round with young kids attending to their religion teacher in the mosque. The teacher who is a sincere friend of mine, was so nice and funny. It was so obvious that the kids do like him. I was watching their faces and their eyes. I could see the brilliance in their look and their presence. The kids were answering his questions with great polite but competitive manner. The kids were so funny and so loving. They made me see that our future is bright. I could see new generation that I can be proud of. I felt the blood pumping in my fatherhood.
Standing for kids by educating them and listening to them is an exceptional way of being and it generates a feeling of happiness and satisfacton. So when I met a primary school headmaster today in Riyadh, I did offer spending a day training his 5th and 6th grade students on Mind Mapping. He was so welcoming.
It is an exceptional, exciting feeling to pursue my purpose in life being a father. (The article to be continued)